My name is Paul and I'm an addict

"You know, it's funny...of all my friends you post on Facebook the most" --Kimbre Sibert

There's something in the air. I don't know what it is, exactly, yet I know it's important. I don't know if that makes sense, in fact, I don't know if anything makes sense right now--I was up most of the early morning with Jonah and his not wanting to sleep. Yesterday, Jason Harris (a great man of God but a horrible singer) posted on his facebook page that he was going to get back to Jesus and away from FB. My inital reaction--as it always is when it comes to Jason--was snark...but then I started to think about it.

And then, at work, I answered the kiosk phone, helped the customer, and checked facebook on my phone.
And then I talked to Eddie and then I checked facebook.
And then I answered a text from Jill about dinner and then I checked facebook on my phone.
And then I went to get a pop, and when I got back, I checked facebook on my phone.

What the heck is wrong with me?

Lately in my life, I have not felt a genuine connection with God but I have a connection with someone who I used to play Gem with when I was 7 (Erika--I use this only as an example, please know this is not a slam on you). Also, I can't believe I just admitted I played Jem--but that's beside the point.

Facebook is a great thing, but it hit me hard yesterday just how much time I waste on it, when I should be doing other things. So, I, too am stepping away for a while. Not sure how long, but I do think that this is something I need to do. I need to refocus my life in a lot of areas, and the distraction of what someone I barely know quoting random song lyrics is just too much for me right now. When I get back, I am going to edit my friends list, as well.

There's so much frustration and fear and drama in my life right now, I need to get back to where I used to be. I am not saying that Facebook is the cause of any of this, but I do know for sure that it's a distraction. I am hungry for genuine connections, both from real-life people and with God, not nonsense from casual acquaintances and people I don't know but that facebook says I might (yes, I used to friend those people).

I don't want to be "the guy on facebook" anymore. I don't want that connection. I ask you one thing, if you are the praying type. Pray for me. Not that I will be able to do walk away--I don't think that'll be tough, but that God will reveal truths about Himself to me when I strip away the distraction. I'll let you know how it's going (and yes, I will post my updates on facebook via this blog), but I am also looking for accountability partners, and bluntly, people to help me get deeper...both with friendships and my relationship with God. If you're willing to do that, give me a call or shoot me a text--567-204-6988 or just post a comment. I don't know if this makes sense, but it makes sense in my head. I do not intend to make anyone mad or upset with this blog. If you took it that way, I'm sorry. It's just the cry of my heart right now to really CONNECT, in a lot of ways.

"I also challenge you to search yourself and ask God to reveal something of value that you can give up, be bold and do what is shown and replace whatever it is with prayer, the Word, the right kind of fellowship, more of the Word, and more prayer and see what happens. Sometimes we have to "fan the flame" just as Paul told Timothy" --Pastor David McGregor (http://www.myjourneyag.com/)